Do you need a friend?

wow, you have nothing, yet you're living in a country where just about anything is achievable, at least you're not living in some crap hole somewhere with nothing to eat, dirty water and no hope at a decent life whatsoever.

if you feel like you're not taking up space, do something about it.

Pity Party of one! Come on! Do you know what some people would do for a job a car and a home?
Besides, you do want something, an answer...

let God take control of your life and let Him decide what's best for you..if youre interested and want to know more, feel free to email me about this (:

Drinking alcoholic beverages is a harmful waste, if a woman is drinking more than two glasses of wine a day.

http://www.easwaran.org might be helpful, as boredom, ennui, feeling stuck, are often symptoms of energy tie-up; i.e., beneath the surface, two or more opposing or conflicting forces are at a standoff.

Meditation can unlock this stasis; "Sacred Psychology of Change: Life as a Voyage of Transformation," Marilyn Barrick, Ph.D., is excellent, helpful.

Give 1-800-232-6459 http://www.family.org a call, business hours, M-F, ask for Counseling dept., tell your concerns.

"Flat affect" is sometimes correlated with subconscious emotions fighting to a standoff; a key is finding a way to enjoy yourself, in a positive, constructive activity, which brings meaning to you and healing to your sense of "same-o, same-o."

You might find the counselors at 1-800-525-LOVE http://www.klove.com helpful; 24/7, they are also licensed, compassionate.

"Soul Mates and Twin Flames," Elizabeth Clare Prophet, may also be interesting;
"Expecting Adam," Martha Beck, Ph.D., and
"The Great Divorce," C. S. Lewis, also worthwhile.

Good fortune.

Don't worry, I felt like this once and I understand exactly what you are saying. You are not taking up space for nothing but you do need to find yourself a purpose. Is there something you would like to try - a new sport, a holiday....something to focus on? Eventually, when you decide to do something it will be because you want to.

However, I wonder if you will find this too, but I now have a different outlook to many of my friends and family - I don't value much that money can buy, it just doesn't seem particularly important; not that I would hand it back if I won the lottery, mind!!! But all the important things are those that money can't buy.... and having come to term with the fact that i am "here for a term" I just get on with living and enjoy what comes along.

Good luck!

since you don't drink anymore you're not escaping reality.know that you care about how you feel and God cares about how you feel.it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.we are hear on earth to figure out where we stand with God.life is a gift!what you need to find first is the peace you find when you find Jesus.his grace covers our sins.then you can find joy.happiness and joy are not the same thing.happiness is an emotion.read your Bible,pray,go to church,and worship God,and humble yourself before God.listen to what he tells your heart.if you feel like something is bad,stay away from it.if you feel like you need to do something,do it.if you're unsure,pray and ask God to speak to you,and before you know it you'll know.after awhile you'll figure out what God wants you to do for him,if you do it,it's the best feeling in the world(better than sex).i hope this helped.